Something brewing
I. am. messy.
Everything about me – my thoughts, my home, my calendar, my finances, my spirit. It’s all a mess. It all needs cleaning. It all needs simplifying.
Something needs to change. For reals.
I’m readingOrganized Simplicity by Tsh Oxenreider. It starts with creating a purpose statement for our family. So that’s my goal for today. I was going to clean the house, but I need to stop just managing my mess and work towards making my entire life more simple and uplifting. Instead of all the aspects of my life competing with one another, they need to all be working towards the same goal. So yes, I’ll do the dishes and fold the laundry today. But I need a unifying goal. A purpose for each task, hour, and item in my home. I want the space to love my child without the stress of tripping over things that I don’t need and don’t have time to take care of. I want to create a space for my husband and myself to truly be able to relax and enjoy eachother and our dear baby girl.
All that I have, all the I am, needs to honor God and build his Kingdom. And that is where I will start.
Let’s do this. (Prayers, please? This is big. And I often lose steam on this kind of thing.)
Preparation
Lent. Preparing for Easter. I’ll be honest, that is not what has been on my mind this season. I’ve been preparing for something else altogether. Deployment. It’s coming up in a just few short months. Instead if preparing for my Savior’s suffering, I’m preparing for my own. Instead of preparing for the ultimate Joy of Easter morning, I’m preparing for a season of loneliness.
There is something wrong with this picture. The only way I’m going to get through the months of anticipation and the following months of difficulty is if I find myself in my Savior. I need Lent and Easter if I’m going to prepare myself for the deployment.
I’m seeing more and more how the Lord needs to change my heart. I’m hard and I easily stray. The human heart – my heart – is an idol factory. Praise the Lord that he knows this about me. But, please, oh please, Lord, I ask you to change my heart and my way of thinking. I am yours.
to seek joy 